It’s been pretty wild lately. You know, I never really got into dating until this past year. I’ve tried meeting people through others, like friends of friends, but each time with that there was a compatibility issue. We would get in our own ways, my partner would blame me for everything and call me a smart-ass, then I would let my partner argue on her own until she told me I wasn’t enough.

Trick is, by taking the moral high ground and choosing not to fight, I was also choosing not to engage with my partner as an equal. I must be really bad at choosing my romantic engagements. I know I have a lot I can learn from these reflections. I hope you learn a little about social choices, and how keeping yourself safe from others’ distress also keeps them distant from your love.

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Don’t know what I’m dreaming about tonight
Thought I’ll see you but my vision’s fading after the fight
Now I’m wondering what the point of feeling happy could be
‘Cause I’m just a fading memory

Heart in hand, I threw it all away in a fit
By the candlelight I’m having trouble giving a shit
Maybe you were never meant for me
I’m sick of finding out too late to see
See the signs
If we’re fine
Or our selves
Could be dying
I couldn’t tell
Honestly
If we’re where we ought to be

Saw you coming so I ducked out to the alley to hide
Swear I’ve been here once before from the other times
Tell me I’m not enough
I can’t move on enough

‘Cause I need another piece of me
When my mind won’t cease to be

So take my red, my green, my everything
My blue-scale world won’t miss you when I sleep
Don’t need you when I sleep

My life can’t take another mess
Don’t send me pics while you undress your savage
Inkblot self